Did you ever see Fight Club? Do you remember how they describe insomnia?
Everything is a copy of a copy of a copy… That’s fucking accurate.
Insomnia is something that I’ve been battling with for my entire life. At some point you learn to manage. The all pervasive weariness just becomes so much humdrum. I’m lucky if I get 8 hours sleep some weeks.
That doesn’t mean I don’t sleep, on the contrary. Once a month or so I’ll have a few nights where my body finally succumbs and I’ll sleep from anywhere between 8 and 12 hours in one session and then the cycle starts over. It’s not perfect, but I’ve made it work for me. I am productive, I work, I’m relatively healthy. But I don’t sleep, at least not in the regular understanding of the word.
But despite that, I still have many days where I understand why they use sleep deprivation as a form of torture. Everything does sort of blend together and time passes differently. Every moment seems to take forever but an hour flies by before you know what the fuck is going on. The worlds fidelity drops and it looks like you’re living in a bootleg VHS.
This is something that you actually get used to and manage to survive even though most of the time you’re for all intents and purposes a zombie. I’d be interested to see how rates of insomnia have risen in the past few years for millenials and younger. I know that for me personally there is a family history of disturbed sleep so I’m not that concerned. I have ways of dealing with it.
It’s something that has always fascinated me. Partly because if my own issues with sleep, but also because I do wonder how do other people manage it? I have cut down on caffeine and only have it first thing in the morning now.
How do you deal with it? Does it affect you personally or through someone you love?
Archer's Asylum 